Happy New Year! It was great for me because Billy and I celebrated Japanese style by making awesome soba. It was great and actually turned out the way it was supposed to (that never happens!) We also got this awesome Japanese kite to fly, although we haven't had the time to do so yet. We spent all of yesterday taking down Christmas decorations and playing Mario Kart/Mario Party. Addicting! I applied for a really amazing job that I don't want to talk about at this point, because I'm convinced I'll curse my chances/feel dumb if I don't get hired. I won't know for a long time probably, but if it happens it will certainly be posted all over the internet haha. What else? Oh right, don't forget to Celebrate the Year of the Cat until January 26th! You see, that is when the Chinese New Year begins, moving from the official Year of the Rat to the Year of the Ox (Cow). However, for me, I like to celebrate this time in between our New Year and theirs by paying homage to the world Cat. Yay for Kyo! Christmas break ends in a week, but the beginning of that end not only includes taking Japanese but seeing Spring Awakening with Billy! So excited for that. I think that's about all for now. More later. I'm going to try to post in here more often this year after noting how little I did so last year.

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Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream colored ponies and crisp apple streudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don't feel so bad

Alright, Christmas time! Today was great, although I really wish we could have had some snow. Hopefully next year I'll be somewhere that snow is actually possible. We shall see. Got some cool stuff, lots of great DVD's that I've been wanting for a while, and I finally own Crisis Core so I can start playing that. Really excited about that. I was more excited to give my parents their gifts honestly, and luckily they seemed to love what I gave. Always a good thing. My stocking was full of great toys (thanks Santa!) and Oliver loved his catnip. Right now I'm watching Logo's all day marathon of Priscilla Queen of the Desert haha I came home just in time for it to start once again. It really has been playing all day. Awesome. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and didn't let anything get them down.

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TELL ME HOW MANY TIMES CAN THIS STORY BE TOLD
AFTER ALL OF THESE YEARS IT SHOULD ALL SOUND SO OLD
BUT IT SOMEHOW RINGS TRUE IN THE BACK OF MY MIND
AS I SEARCH FOR A DREAM THAT WORDS CAN NO LONGER DEFINE

READING BY THE LIGHT OF A LOST CHRISTMAS DAY
AND THE TIME

((©2005-2008 ~bAozi))

AND THE TIME AND THE YEARS
AND THE TEARS AND THE COST
AND THE HOPES AND THE DREAMS
OF EACH CHILD THAT IS LOST
AND THE WHISPER OF WINGS
IN THE COLD WINTER’S AIR
AS THE SNOW IT COMES DOWN
AND VISIONS APPEAR EVERYWHERE

((©2008 ~chocolatekrazed

If you want to arrange it
This world you can change it
If we could somehow make this
Christmas thing last

By helping a neighbor
Or even a stranger

((©2008 ~Julye-chan))


And to know who needs help
You need only just ask

So I totally missed making my Christmas Eve entry here, so I'm just going to make it now and pretend it is still yesterday haha So yay, it is Christmas Eve! Always a nice feeling I think. Can't wait to see my parents open their presents in the morning. I really hope they like what I got for them this year. They are always tricky.

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Who spends this night in attics dark
Where dreams are stored like sleeping hearts
And so it's here that they must wait
Till someone wishes them awake

((©2005-2008 ~shizero))

For somewhere on this night of nights
She's looking to believe
Here among the ghosts on Christmas Eve

((©2007-2008 ~EternalWingedAngel))

So I just realized I haven't updated since Halloween, sorry about that, heh. Oh well, I have been too busy honestly because of school and such. Thanksgiving is boring anyway, so no point in making special entries for that. Just a day to celebrate the poisoning of the Natives, awesome! However, this year we celebrated in a much better way. We went to karaoke and drank White Russians! I really have the best family ever. ^^ I sang by myself for the first time too (usually sing with at least one other person). I figured David Bowie was the best thing to do alone, so I went with "Life on Mars". Totally great. Not that I'm great, but the song is of course. What's my point here? Oh right, sorry about not posting. Life is crazy, but the end of the semester is very near. I'll be done with finals next Thursday, at which time I will drive home and start cleaning (family coming in, gotta be clean!) Then I get to pick up my Uncle Bill at the airport on Friday, yay family! The days to follow will include fun, karaoke, food, presents, and family entertainment all around. Good times. Oh, finished with my Cormac McCarthy class finally and I must say that it ended on a great note. The Road is simply amazing, I highly recommend it. There were of course some novels in that class I wasn't crazy about, but I think if I had read them on my own free time I would have enjoyed them much more. Alright, wasting time here so I'm going to wrap this up. Oh hey, Christmas is coming.

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And then a sound filled the night
In the cold winter air
And in the midst of his flight
It was holding him there

((©2007-2008 =Skye-of-Cydonia))

Yay it is Halloween! This should be a great Halloween I think. Not that every Halloween isn't great. Don't have time to say much, just had to make sure and get my Halloween entry made this year. So I made just enough time to do this in between my paper writing, novel reading, test studying, and future planning life. Back to work! Happy Halloween everyone!

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Boys and girls of every age
Wouldn't you like to see something strange?

Come with us and you will see
This, our town of Halloween

((©2006-2008 ~Schattenwoelfin-sama))

This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
Trick or treat till the neighbors gonna die of fright
It's our town, everybody scream
In this town of Halloween

((©2005-2008 ~FalseHope04))

Aren't you scared?

Well, that's just fine
Say it once, say it twice
Take a chance and roll the dice
Ride with the moon in the dead of night


((©2007-2008 *pandabaka))

I am the "who" when you call, "Who's there?"
I am the wind blowing through your hair

I am the shadow on the moon at night
Filling your dreams to the brim with fright

((©2007-2008 ~ZoroSan))

Tender lumplings everywhere
Life's no fun without a good scare

That's our job, but we're not mean
In our town of Halloween

Well I suppose the curse is back. Nothing to worry about, as it honestly has very little importance for actual living. Of course, when has that ever been my greatest concern? Ugh, I should have seen this coming. I probably shouldn't stay up so late if I have class in the morning, but I was busy reading. The result was not at all what I would have hoped for though. Oh, this is meant to vague. So I'm sorry when none of this makes sense. Just glance at it, smile and nod, and move along, heh. The point is I'm depressed now and it is annoying. I would have been fine if I just had stuck to doing homework and nothing else. Damn. Well, this certainly changes things. I suppose I should mention nothing particularly bad has happened to me, I'm just being silly.

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Find a deep cave to hide in
In a million years they'll find me
Only dust and a plaque

But I never intended all this madness, never
And nobody really understood, how could they?
That all I ever wanted was to bring them something great
Why does nothing ever turn out like it should?

((©2007-2008 ~yuumei))

Another week, yay! I really do hope to update this a couple more times before Halloween but I don't know if I'll have the time or motivation. We shall see. What to say, what to say. Been a strange bit of time between this entry and the last.
Lots of writing, story writing, so to speak.
Not one for explanations.
Look at this, getting vague again.
Two more characters, how do I get myself into these things? There are just too many wonderful ideas among those minds. Finished another novel for the McCarthy class. That makes four now. Half way done, only four more to. Suttree was great, really, but this last one was wonderful. I become so attached to characters, I have to wonder if I may only be able to love those who only exist in art forms. Really though, All The Pretty Horses, sounds lame, but I promise it isn't. Well, not to me at least, I promise nothing about the perceptions of others. Which are confusing anyway.
There is me, how I am seen, and how I think I am seen.
I doubt highly that what is seen is not what I see as myself.
Maybe that is just a case of clouded vision as I look at what others see.
Could be that what really is seen won't be so far from me.
Nice if that is alright.
It is late and my thoughts are scattered. I haven't been home in quite a long time, over a month I believe. I won't be home until Halloween, which should be amazing. Right, home. What will I do after graduation? Need to decide, yesterday. I still believe the closest I've even been to believing was in song.

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When it comes to surprises in the moonlit night
I excel without ever even trying
With the slightest little effort of my ghostlike charms
I have see grown men give out a shriek
With a wave of my hand and a well-placed moan
I have swept the very bravest off their feet

((©2005-2008 ~ChaosCurry))

I said something about posting in here more often right? Heh, well I kind of forgot about that it seems but it has only been a week so that isn't too bad. Not much has happened in that amount of time honestly. That's probably why I haven't been updating much lately. There just isn't that much going on. I'm taking 18 hours right now so unless I talk about my school work I don't have much to tell. Found out today that my family Halloween party is being moved to the weekend of Halloween, which is cool because I was wanting to go home that weekend for a friend's party actually on Halloween. Should be a good celebration this year. Two parties in a row means wearing my costume twice in row. ^^ Good news for me. Looking forward to seeing my friends that weekend as well because honestly I haven't seen my Dallas friends in a while. Even over the summer we were all so busy that it was hard to hang out. Billy is also coming up for the party so I'll get to see him, which is always a plus. Put up my Halloween decorations yesterday, but I still want to buy some spiderwebs to put up and make the look complete. Really what I am waiting for at the moment is for the cold to come. Well, the pretend cold we get here at least. I am very much so longing for that feeling I get when it gets cold outside. So hurry up cold fronts and save from this Texas heat!

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A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires

((©2005-2008 *iruka-loves-kakashi))

So I feel bad for neglecting this for so long, especially this month. I need to put up all my wonderful Halloween pictures of course! So, I should be updating this month just for that at least. I took the Biology CLEP today, and passed with the exact score needed to do so! If I had many even one less point, I wouldn't have passed, heh. I don't care though, I am just glad I passed, no matter what the score was. So yeah, after studying for months I can finally say I don't have to take a science class my last semester of college! Now I can take only English and Art History. Oh, how it is a dream come true. ^^ Anyways, other than that nothing really new to report. Class are fine, but with taking 18 hours I am very busy with school work. In fact, right now I should be reading one of the three novels I am reading at the moment. Yay! I have my first Philosophy test tomorrow, but that shouldn't be difficult. Let's see...other than that, I am most concerned with the fact that I really need a hair cut. It has gotten very long, and thick. Won't be home until the Halloween party, but might wait to get it done until then. I made Billy's Halloween costume from scratch by the way, crazy hard. Turned out alright, clearly not the best. For me, I'm going to be a dragon based on one of my original characters, whose appearance was inspired by a particular picture. I'll put it up eventually. Anyway, I am really excited about that because I was able to buy the whole thing by being clever at the costume store this year. Well, I really need to get to reading that novel, so I'll update more later. Forgive the scattered text and probable typos.

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It's a sin with a name
No remorse and no shame
Fire, fury and flame

'Cos the devil's to blame

And the angels proclaim
It's a dangerous game

((©2007-2008 ~ReverieDream))

So...I'm an aunt. How weird is that?! Right, I know, crazy. I'm happy for my brother and Ceci though. They are thrilled. It is kind of cute how happy they are. Probably won't be able to meet her until December though thanks to the fact that they live so far away. No fun, but what would I do with a baby anyway? Seriously, if the kid can't talk yet, that means it can't sing. If there isn't singing, there is no way to reenact Oliver, therefore leaving the purpose of the kid missing. Heh, ok, I am kidding...mostly. =) Anyways...here is a picture of little Sophia (curse them for stealing the only good name for a girl!)

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It is just that it is delicate

I was planning to update this sooner, but I just haven't wanted to honestly. School started on Monday. Last Fall semester in college for me. I should be happy about that, but I am not at all. My six classes are already proving to be a lot of work. Nothing I can't handle, but certainly not going to easy when I would rather be doing other things with my time than just schoolwork. I am a contradiction. Watching a lot of movies lately. I was still nervous like I always am the first day of classes. You'd think that at 21 I would be over that, but I'm not. I still have one class of Friday that I haven't been to yet, so I'm sure I'll be illogical nervous then as well. Some things are being difficult, like I thought they might. I don't have the time or energy to deal with some of the things people are asking of me. Like when my French professor basically forces me to take part in the club, that involves singer two days a week. What the hell? *sigh* Sometimes, I honestly just don't like people at all. I don't want anything to do with some of them most of the time. This is a bit downcast, but I'm not overly upset or anything. Tomorrow I am finally going to get my other wrist tattoo, if everything goes as planned. I certainly hope it goes smoothly. I am quite excited to get it. Every time I hear certain songs, I am brought back to another time and place in my life. I feel the way I did then. I can almost smell the air the way it was then. It isn't that it makes me said exactly, but I just feel strange. It seems like it was only dream. Everything is different now. As if it never even happened. This is one of those songs. Well, back to doing other things. More writing to be done...

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Laughing on the bus, playing games with the faces
She said the man in the gabardine suit was a spy
I said be careful his bowtie is really a camera

I'm lost, I said, though I knew she was sleeping
I'm empty and I'm aching and I don't know why

So I really just haven't felt like posting lately, but now I have something that I feel like typing up. My summer is almost over now, which is a bit sad. I am looking forward to this semester of school though. I really miss my independence that I only truly have when I am away at school. I have really loved being home, but there are of course times where I think "If I were at school, I would be able to do this without any problems". I am also in desperate need of a change in environment for various reasons, so that will be nice. I have been doing a lot more of my own writing lately, through various means, and I am enjoying that. I wonder how much longer I will have the spare time to do any writing at all. I fear graduation will end that to some degree. *Tries to not think about graduation*. I don't want to grow up, you cannot make me!

Now for the real issue at hand. Today (or yesterday I suppose) I went to a funeral for a very close family friend. This was the second funeral I have been to this summer. The other one was last week. Two in a row. Two very different circumstances. The family friend was like a grandmother to me and a truly amazing person that I will miss dearly. It has been hard to grieve for her because of a lack of alone time, and my own trouble with letting others see me cry. However, I do grieve and I am saddened by the world's lose. The funeral last week was a friend of a friend so to speak. He was one of my good friend's long time boyfriend. I didn't know him that well honestly, mostly because I have been away at college for most of our friendship. However, I of course went to the funeral to support my friend. There are very few things that are more difficult than watching someone you care about hurt, when you cannot do anything to help. I sat through the service, watching from afar as my friend was in pain. It broke my heart.

I'm sure it is easy to understand that I may have been a bit down for the last two weeks. Sometimes I wish I was a less emotional person.

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I'll face the night and I'll pretend
I got something to believe in

If theres nothing but survival, how can I believe in sin
In a world that gives you nothing
We need something to believe in

((©2006-2008 *Lasaro))

So I haven't updated most of the summer and I really have no idea why. It is probably because nothing has been happening really. My days are simple and usually follow the same pattern. I spend 90% of my time with Billy and the rest of the time with my friend Nathan. Desiree and I have been trying to hang out, but something always seems to get in the way when we try. Tonight is a possibility, but I somehow doubt it. The second weekend of August Billy goes home, and then I'll be sure to hang out with Desiree and other friends as much as possible before going back to school. I'm looking forward to getting back to school, but dreading how hard this semester is going to be. Taking 18 hours with an annoying schedule is not thrilling. I'm sure I'll be fine though. So, as expected, I have nothing to really talk about...because nothing has been happening. Nothing exciting, but I'm content with the summer, minus the lack of seeing Desiree. So, I'm still alive, just nothing to report really.

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What is this thing that builds our dreams yet slips away
From us

Who wants to live forever
Who wants to live forever....?

But touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips

((©*kidchan))

So, as happens every now and then, I am for no real reason mostly uninterested in most things involving the internet. Therefore, I have not updated recently. I feel like I should though, so here I am, with nothing to write. Ah, a writer with no words, a tragedy indeed. These type of situations always lead me to feelings that deal with the elusive "what if". I won't go into all the specifics here, but I admit there are a few starting to pile up. None of that regretting something from the past thing, but more of "what if this was the current situation" scenarios. Oh to dream. Most of them involve reshaping world geography and other impossible acts of the highest fantasy. Of course, as I was recently told, I need to be looking for something fantastic to happen anyway, for writing purposes of course. The fact that the previous sentence will make sense to no one doesn't bother me one bit. =) I think I may be done rambling for now. This really wasn't an update, but more of a rambling of random thoughts.

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All things are real,
unless you dream they're not

((Bleach))

I really don't know what to update about but I do have one picture to show from my brother's wedding. It is still the only one I have, so more should follow at some point in the future. Here it is ---> http://i260.photobucket.com/albums/ii8/travelheather/IMG_0818E.jpg I'm with my aunt, it is an alright picture.

Anyways...I finally got a haircut today, so now it is manageable. I'm still growing it out though. I somehow got all A's this semester, which is good. The summer is a nice break from all that school stuff. Life is going well and I'm enjoying hanging out with my friends. Maddy's birthday was definitely the best thing ever. Yay Maddy for being 21 now. More people to come with me to Cedar Springs and dance the night away. Well I am getting bored just writing this, so I'm sure it is hard to read. Something needs to be done. Even though it seems like a waste of time. Something needs to be done.

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There's only so much you can learn in one place
The more that you wait
The more time that you waste

((Sky Fish ©2008 *iruka-loves-kakashi))

So, woke up, remembered the date, went back to sleep. That actually just led to sleeping way too long, which will probably make falling asleep tonight tricky. Oh well, I think this happens every year. The plan is the same as always. Stay in the house as much as possible. I'm aware of how silly that is, but that's what I like to do on this day. It has been four years and it is still a strange memory. My scar is still there, although others had theirs removed. I think not being his friend anymore made this day a lot harder to deal with. Oh well, one day maybe I'll be completely over this. One year I will wake up and not think "today was the day of our accident". I think I'm done complaining about this for now. The point is, today is a strange day. It just feels strange.

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These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain't a ladder on these streets
These days - are fast, love don't last in this graceless age
There ain't anybody left but but us these days

((©2008 *Lasaro))

Now, for something different.
Actually, it is something of the usual variety.
Just not been used in a while.
Yes, for this moment it is time to revert.
Back to this setup.
Just for a moment, or so.
Try not to read too much into this.

After doing some reading, feel a little better.
Everything seems to be about time.
Is it only time?
Or is time all that important?
Some would say no.
Others say yes.
What about the writer?
Unsure.

Dreams continue to confuse.
Consistency is interesting and helpful.
Randomness is not appreciated.
Yet, something just revealed (yes at this very moment) that the randomness is not to be bothered with.
It seems to be the consistency that holds the ace.
Those eyes.

How much of this is a pattern?

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It's the kind of sleepwalk that never ends.
A type of loan with no dividends.
It's a parlour game where you're given chase.
Guess it could be called an acquired taste.

((©2004-2008 *Lasaro))

Today was a good day! I changed my layout a bit for the summer. Probably get new icons too, but first I wanted to write in here. So yes, like I said, today was a good day. I was sick all weekend, which made studying for finals hellish. However, I ended up being more than prepared to ace both the finals I had today. Art History was a breeze. English took me five minutes, no joke. I even did the extra credit. Better than that? She gave me back my ten page paper. I made a 100. Seriously. She wrote good comments on it too. She really got what I was trying to go for, with the whole light and dark, yet dark too. That would make sense if you read the paper, but I'm not going to go into here. Anyway, it just felt really good. It also means that I made a 100 in that class. I can't believe that actually happened. If only grades really mattered in the future, heh. Also, went to listen to my favorite professor read his poetry tonight with Krista. He really impressed me. Made me feel really self-conscious about all the terrible writing I've turned in to him over the past year. It was really cool to hear his stuff though. Even if he called Krista and I out, thinking we wouldn't know who Pete Townshend is, psh. I told him he was discriminating against us (ageism!). Everyone laughed. Good times. Seriously, give us some credit. Anyway, after all that we chatted super awkwardly (after he poked me, yes, poked). The point of the story is that he told me that he really loved my last essay for his class, the one that I got to be creative with. You know, the only creative thing I've been able to write in my college years. He actually used the word "publish". Coming from him, especially after hearing what he can write, made me feel great. I'm a dork, I know, but that was just awesome. More awkwardness followed and Krista and I made our exit (after finding which door would be best, no thanks to my professor). The point? I'm in a great mood. Things are looking good right now. Good things are on the horizon, and I plan on pulling everything in. Also, I never proofread these, which makes me a terrible English major and editor to be. So I'm sorry for my typos and missing words. I tend to skip out on words when my brain is working faster than my hands.

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Hey! Its been a lovely day! Everything's been going my way
I had so much fun today and I'm on fire!

((Loveless))

It seems I have been increasingly sensitive lately, and I can't figure out why. I thought it was for the obvious reason, but I really don't think that is the case anymore. Maybe I am just going crazy, as in more crazy than I already was. Then again, is that even possible? I feel like I put too much stock in small things. Why does everything have to mean so much? It clearly isn't that way for everyone. Just some thoughts, nothing really making sense...

Today was the last class day of the semester! Yay! Finals next week and then I'm home free. Finally. For a minute there, I thought I was creative, but I think I might have lost it again. I wish I had a plane, and I could just fly and visit whoever I wanted. That would make the world so much smaller for me, and maybe more workable.

I need to think of things to do with my dad over the summer...What do you do with your parents? My mom is more like my best friend than a parent, so I really don't know. Tricky.

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The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by, and I cried

((©2005-2008 *iruka-loves-kakashi))

I need to find that...A lot has happened, so I really should update. I'm doing pretty good despite the insanity that has become my life. I need to finish my last paper of the semester, but I'm not worried at all because I basically just get to write about my opinions. This is going to be scattered, I can tell. Sometimes, I just don't want to talk and I don't want to be talked to. It isn't just a certain person, it is everyone. I'm having a day like that today. I wish there was a nice way to tell a person that. Watched the Labyrinth the other night. I was the perfect antidote. Breaking up is strange, so is being single. There are a lot of good things. I'm being positive. It was for the best, but that doesn't make it easy. My dad called last Sunday, it was the best phone call I've ever received. I hope to get more. I should call him, but I'll wait until I get home so we'll have something to talk about. 12 minutes seemed like an awfully long time. I need to study for this stupid French test but I really don't want to. I'd much rather just not go. With this test out of the way I'm determined to finish that paper tonight, then I'll just have two finals next week and nothing more to worry about for a little. Really having a great time with RP, feel like I'm 11 again. Oh how the internet changed my life for the better at such a young age. I want to go home to Carrollton, I miss home.

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I can't trap a mouse,
but I can pet a cat.
No, I'm really serious!
I'm really very good at that.
I used to be the tight one,
the perfect fit.

(("This is my Story"
©2007-2008 *Lasaro))